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Thanks for the wishes!
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Thank you for all the birthday wishes, I hadn't realized so many people still made the effort to give me wishes, year by year even though I had not responded to each of you individually. I do read all of your messages and I'm deeply appreciative for them.
Boy, it's also been a long while since I've visited DA! Ironically it's still set as a default homepage for my web browsers because that's how I've always felt the most comfortable. As many of you know, there hasn't been many updates to my DA account, not because I've lost an interest in drawing or have decided to host my images elsewhere, but because I have a lot of real life tasks that take precedent.
I'm actually not dead as cliché as that sounds and I still love drawing immensely. It's always been a huge part of what I enjoy doing and what makes life worth living. It's no secret a big part of the popularity of my work started out because of fanart. True enough, drawing fanart is still the easiest way to gain exposure for most people... I drew fanart because I'm a filthy pervert, the exposure was just a bonus.
Like I've mentioned before, there hasn't been much updates here because of real life commitments and also because I haven't found a good reason to post the art I draw. Many years ago I found that drawing on-model fanart was restricting my ability to create my own style and by extension my own creativity. This was where I started branching out and created some OCs to facilitate creating something new. As time went on though, I couldn't really find a proper place to post my drawings. DA over the years has developed a reputation of being the (lack of a better word) dumpster site for artwork on the internet, hosting the truly weird (and sometimes disturbing artwork) and *most* of the more talented artists I follow here have moved on to newer sites such as Artstation where their work would be taken more seriously.
My art isn't amateur, but it's also not professional either. Which was why I had hesitations on continuing on DA and why I thought it was inappropriate to host on Artstation. I also sometimes draw nudity or even porn, but most of the time I liked to draw pinups, which is why HentaiFoundry isn't an appropriate place to host my work either. For a while, Tumblr seemed to be a suitable place that allowed me to post whatever came to mind. Unfortunately it was short lived, due to it's frustrating user interface and the final nail in the coffin where they banned all material they regarded as adult content which resulted in the website becoming a shell of it's former self.
At the moment a lot of my sketches and drawings remain on sketchbooks, and I'm sure a lot of people would enjoy seeing my OCs come out to play again. There are some new concepts I've been thinking of drawing, but it's also been a while since I've sketched properly. Part of the problem with this procrastination I have at the moment is the fear of finding out if my art skills have degraded from the lack of practice or if I had developed a new perspective to draw differently after a hiatus. But I suppose we'll never find out until I try, so I better get to it if I can find the time.
Anyway that's all for my long ramble. It's been great seeing you all again and I hope you're all having a wonderful day.
LL
Boy, it's also been a long while since I've visited DA! Ironically it's still set as a default homepage for my web browsers because that's how I've always felt the most comfortable. As many of you know, there hasn't been many updates to my DA account, not because I've lost an interest in drawing or have decided to host my images elsewhere, but because I have a lot of real life tasks that take precedent.
I'm actually not dead as cliché as that sounds and I still love drawing immensely. It's always been a huge part of what I enjoy doing and what makes life worth living. It's no secret a big part of the popularity of my work started out because of fanart. True enough, drawing fanart is still the easiest way to gain exposure for most people... I drew fanart because I'm a filthy pervert, the exposure was just a bonus.
Like I've mentioned before, there hasn't been much updates here because of real life commitments and also because I haven't found a good reason to post the art I draw. Many years ago I found that drawing on-model fanart was restricting my ability to create my own style and by extension my own creativity. This was where I started branching out and created some OCs to facilitate creating something new. As time went on though, I couldn't really find a proper place to post my drawings. DA over the years has developed a reputation of being the (lack of a better word) dumpster site for artwork on the internet, hosting the truly weird (and sometimes disturbing artwork) and *most* of the more talented artists I follow here have moved on to newer sites such as Artstation where their work would be taken more seriously.
My art isn't amateur, but it's also not professional either. Which was why I had hesitations on continuing on DA and why I thought it was inappropriate to host on Artstation. I also sometimes draw nudity or even porn, but most of the time I liked to draw pinups, which is why HentaiFoundry isn't an appropriate place to host my work either. For a while, Tumblr seemed to be a suitable place that allowed me to post whatever came to mind. Unfortunately it was short lived, due to it's frustrating user interface and the final nail in the coffin where they banned all material they regarded as adult content which resulted in the website becoming a shell of it's former self.
At the moment a lot of my sketches and drawings remain on sketchbooks, and I'm sure a lot of people would enjoy seeing my OCs come out to play again. There are some new concepts I've been thinking of drawing, but it's also been a while since I've sketched properly. Part of the problem with this procrastination I have at the moment is the fear of finding out if my art skills have degraded from the lack of practice or if I had developed a new perspective to draw differently after a hiatus. But I suppose we'll never find out until I try, so I better get to it if I can find the time.
Anyway that's all for my long ramble. It's been great seeing you all again and I hope you're all having a wonderful day.
LL
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Hai guys!
It's been a while! I know I haven't been uploading anything in months but life has been busy and motivation to draw when I get home has been lacking. I've been further discouraged from posting things here since the permanent ban of Callmepo which appears to be a personal vendetta by a mod looking for excuses to ban him. There were other friends who had their journals deleted discussing this topic despite there being nothing on DA policy saying that you can't talk about a member being banned. I've been down that road before but I'm at the point of not caring if my account goes that way too, apart from the marginal feelings of nostalgia.
Either way, as much as I dislike the Tumblr's interface I have to agree that DA is going the way of the dinosaur and that Tumblr is quickly rising up to fill the gap for artists wanting to draw pinups (and even porn). It's sad really, but I suppose nothing is permanent on the internet (except for Space Jam) and that things will eventually change no matter how much you invest somewhere.
For the people who are asking, yes I'm still drawing, although it is more on traditional medium and on paper scraps I find lying around. My commissions status is a little flakey (I want to accept, but I'm not open to any atm), though a lot of people have been asking me for it. I would like to eventually take one or two commissions, but they are not my main source of income which is why I'm not in any rush to offer them. While I enjoy drawing, commissions involve me drawing other people's ideas on my free time, so my pricing reflects on how much I value my free time and technical skill, and not on how much it will take to feed me. As for when I will open my status for commissions (and to put up a price list), it'll probably be during mid/late August.
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With that out of the way, the main topic I'd like to discuss is about the recent story involving some tourists from Canada who decided to travel to Mount Kinabalu in Sabah, break public indecency laws, urinate over a national landmark and then went on to say "Fuck your culture". News outlets report it differently, painting them as victims and scores of people agreeing that the culture of Sabah is indeed 'stupid' all over the internet.
I've climbed Mt. Kinabalu when I was 14 years old and reach Low's Peak (ironically is the highest peak, but the guy who discovered it was called Low). It was a memorable and easy climb but I remembered being violently ill at the halfway camp (probably due to altitude sickness and whatnot at my age). I was offered to stay in and let the rest of the school group reach the peak at 4am, but I refused. I believed the regret of not trying to go up there would be worse than the regret of reaching the top with a hell of a headache/fever. Thankfully though I was correct, and the view was mesmerizing looking at the sunrise over the valley early at 4am. But I digress...
Before people get up in arms about the tourists earning arrest warrants it's important to clear up that they are being charged with public indecency and defacing a national landmark. The people around the immediate area live in small villages with a nearby town that is more developed, but the community as a whole have a rule to keep the mountain as pristine location as possible despite it being a tourist location. They also believe in spirits and superstitious beliefs, but these beliefs are not enforced by law. What is enforced by law is public indecency, littering and defacing landmarks. Canada has a similar law (Article 167 - Immoral theatrical performances and Article 173 - Indecent exposure) which grants you an arrest for public displays of nudity.
Mount Kinabalu is not exactly an isolated place as many would have believed; There are hundreds of climbers who climb the mountain daily and several thousands monthly (mostly local Malaysians), it's not uncommon to have several other climbers pass you by on the way up, some of which are local school children on trips.
The second point is the defacing of a national landmark where it is either littering or urination/defecation/spitting. In order to keep the area as pristine as possible, the only acceptable thing to leave behind is carbon dioxide from your breath. There are designated areas where toilets built at regular intervals in order to provide rest stops and to discourage people from urinating and defecating all over the mountain and trails. There are fines for people who don't follow this. From the volume of tourists and visitors the mountain gets, you can see how this equates to pouring large amounts raw untreated sewage into the ecosystem every year if this was not regulated. It would be an ecological disaster.
Thirdly, despite what officials say about their beliefs in the supernatural causes for the following tremors, they cannot call for arrests because superstitious beliefs are not enforced by law. Environmental damages and frank disregard for indecency law does, which is the main basis for the arrest warrants, despite what news outlets spin the story for you to believe.
Lastly, those tourists were warned beforehand by their tour guide on these rules, on where the rest stops were and specifically on conduct and public indecency. They had the opportunity to plan ahead of time where to take pit stops and where to throw the trash, so there was literally no excuse for ignorance or their behavior. They then went on to preemptively break those rules, stripped naked, pissed on a national landmark, told the locals to "fuck your culture" simply out of pure contempt for the area they were visiting. It saddens me that the international community agrees with their views while Malaysians are left to clean up the mess (both physical and PR) the so called 'tourists' left behind.
Sometimes I wonder if Western tourists visit Asia to see how people live differently or to simply impose their sense of superiority through cultural imperialism. It's really none of their business why our environmental rules are in place or why we have public indecency laws. They come in thinking they are the masters of other people's land they set foot on, where the local laws apply to everyone but them, like a colonialist from the 1800s. Even I can see that it's wrong to for example, to travel to Canada, strip naked and piss on a war memorial. Then later tell the locals they are stupid because those people are dead and it won't affect them and to stop being so offended.
I don't know really, but sorry for the sour note of the journal. I needed to get that off my chest.
I'll leave this with you: pbs.twimg.com/media/CG-5GA5XAA…
It's been a while! I know I haven't been uploading anything in months but life has been busy and motivation to draw when I get home has been lacking. I've been further discouraged from posting things here since the permanent ban of Callmepo which appears to be a personal vendetta by a mod looking for excuses to ban him. There were other friends who had their journals deleted discussing this topic despite there being nothing on DA policy saying that you can't talk about a member being banned. I've been down that road before but I'm at the point of not caring if my account goes that way too, apart from the marginal feelings of nostalgia.
Either way, as much as I dislike the Tumblr's interface I have to agree that DA is going the way of the dinosaur and that Tumblr is quickly rising up to fill the gap for artists wanting to draw pinups (and even porn). It's sad really, but I suppose nothing is permanent on the internet (except for Space Jam) and that things will eventually change no matter how much you invest somewhere.
For the people who are asking, yes I'm still drawing, although it is more on traditional medium and on paper scraps I find lying around. My commissions status is a little flakey (I want to accept, but I'm not open to any atm), though a lot of people have been asking me for it. I would like to eventually take one or two commissions, but they are not my main source of income which is why I'm not in any rush to offer them. While I enjoy drawing, commissions involve me drawing other people's ideas on my free time, so my pricing reflects on how much I value my free time and technical skill, and not on how much it will take to feed me. As for when I will open my status for commissions (and to put up a price list), it'll probably be during mid/late August.
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With that out of the way, the main topic I'd like to discuss is about the recent story involving some tourists from Canada who decided to travel to Mount Kinabalu in Sabah, break public indecency laws, urinate over a national landmark and then went on to say "Fuck your culture". News outlets report it differently, painting them as victims and scores of people agreeing that the culture of Sabah is indeed 'stupid' all over the internet.
I've climbed Mt. Kinabalu when I was 14 years old and reach Low's Peak (ironically is the highest peak, but the guy who discovered it was called Low). It was a memorable and easy climb but I remembered being violently ill at the halfway camp (probably due to altitude sickness and whatnot at my age). I was offered to stay in and let the rest of the school group reach the peak at 4am, but I refused. I believed the regret of not trying to go up there would be worse than the regret of reaching the top with a hell of a headache/fever. Thankfully though I was correct, and the view was mesmerizing looking at the sunrise over the valley early at 4am. But I digress...
Before people get up in arms about the tourists earning arrest warrants it's important to clear up that they are being charged with public indecency and defacing a national landmark. The people around the immediate area live in small villages with a nearby town that is more developed, but the community as a whole have a rule to keep the mountain as pristine location as possible despite it being a tourist location. They also believe in spirits and superstitious beliefs, but these beliefs are not enforced by law. What is enforced by law is public indecency, littering and defacing landmarks. Canada has a similar law (Article 167 - Immoral theatrical performances and Article 173 - Indecent exposure) which grants you an arrest for public displays of nudity.
Mount Kinabalu is not exactly an isolated place as many would have believed; There are hundreds of climbers who climb the mountain daily and several thousands monthly (mostly local Malaysians), it's not uncommon to have several other climbers pass you by on the way up, some of which are local school children on trips.
The second point is the defacing of a national landmark where it is either littering or urination/defecation/spitting. In order to keep the area as pristine as possible, the only acceptable thing to leave behind is carbon dioxide from your breath. There are designated areas where toilets built at regular intervals in order to provide rest stops and to discourage people from urinating and defecating all over the mountain and trails. There are fines for people who don't follow this. From the volume of tourists and visitors the mountain gets, you can see how this equates to pouring large amounts raw untreated sewage into the ecosystem every year if this was not regulated. It would be an ecological disaster.
Thirdly, despite what officials say about their beliefs in the supernatural causes for the following tremors, they cannot call for arrests because superstitious beliefs are not enforced by law. Environmental damages and frank disregard for indecency law does, which is the main basis for the arrest warrants, despite what news outlets spin the story for you to believe.
Lastly, those tourists were warned beforehand by their tour guide on these rules, on where the rest stops were and specifically on conduct and public indecency. They had the opportunity to plan ahead of time where to take pit stops and where to throw the trash, so there was literally no excuse for ignorance or their behavior. They then went on to preemptively break those rules, stripped naked, pissed on a national landmark, told the locals to "fuck your culture" simply out of pure contempt for the area they were visiting. It saddens me that the international community agrees with their views while Malaysians are left to clean up the mess (both physical and PR) the so called 'tourists' left behind.
Sometimes I wonder if Western tourists visit Asia to see how people live differently or to simply impose their sense of superiority through cultural imperialism. It's really none of their business why our environmental rules are in place or why we have public indecency laws. They come in thinking they are the masters of other people's land they set foot on, where the local laws apply to everyone but them, like a colonialist from the 1800s. Even I can see that it's wrong to for example, to travel to Canada, strip naked and piss on a war memorial. Then later tell the locals they are stupid because those people are dead and it won't affect them and to stop being so offended.
I don't know really, but sorry for the sour note of the journal. I needed to get that off my chest.
I'll leave this with you: pbs.twimg.com/media/CG-5GA5XAA…
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What is this Tumblr you speak of?
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Hai!
Long time no see. Uhhh. I know I don't update much, but it's because of life getting real busy. However, I haven't stopped drawing and most of my stuff is mostly on paper and shared between random people who manage to chat with me online.
Anyway, I still log onto DA to fave pictures like a madman and I've noticed a large exodus of people towards Tumblr. Maybe Tumblr is less prudish towards adult artwork, which means that DA can't really afford to keep up this sort of attitude unless it wants to lose its competitors. Either way, I can't seem to get used to navigating Tumblr. There isn't much of a comment system that's obvious to me and a lot of people simply reblog posts. Reblogging is annoying for me because most of the time I can never find the original source of the image I've found. There probably is a way to do that, but I feel like I'm becoming an old geezer :S
What do you guys think of Tumblr? Any tips or tricks to share with me?
Long time no see. Uhhh. I know I don't update much, but it's because of life getting real busy. However, I haven't stopped drawing and most of my stuff is mostly on paper and shared between random people who manage to chat with me online.
Anyway, I still log onto DA to fave pictures like a madman and I've noticed a large exodus of people towards Tumblr. Maybe Tumblr is less prudish towards adult artwork, which means that DA can't really afford to keep up this sort of attitude unless it wants to lose its competitors. Either way, I can't seem to get used to navigating Tumblr. There isn't much of a comment system that's obvious to me and a lot of people simply reblog posts. Reblogging is annoying for me because most of the time I can never find the original source of the image I've found. There probably is a way to do that, but I feel like I'm becoming an old geezer :S
What do you guys think of Tumblr? Any tips or tricks to share with me?
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For those of you who like Space games...
5 min read
Do not buy or support Space Engineers on Steam.
I've come across the announcement of the game because I am a very regular user of Kerbal Space Program. Keep in mind this was before Space Engineers made its debut on Steam. Since then, I've mostly kept quiet about it, until now. Now that it's on Steam, you get a massive boatload of absolute retards who do zero research on a game and buy based on reflex and hype.
In case you are wondering why, Marek Rosa (the dev who's in charge of Keen Software House) was well known by the Miner Wars 2018 community to have lied and taken money without delivering on promises on that previous crowd funding game. He promised that it would be an MMO, charged money for it, and RAN off.
For evidence's sake I'll post a post mortem here (The comments section alone is worth the price of admission.):
www.gamasutra.com/blogs/MarekR…
Now let me reiterate the debacle that was Miner Wars.
When it first cropped up (and asked for money, no less...), it was touted as a sandbox game with destructible terrain (asteroids), which you would mine for minerals, which you could sell for upgrades. While turning your holey rock into you personal swiss cheese of doom and boobytraps. Motherships supposedly were to serve as hubs / trading points, with clan/player owned motherships being touted as possible concept.
Then all of the sudden MMO talk started. More money was appropriated with the promise of MMO-style gameplay. A terrible, sub-par descent clone with barely destructible terrain (yes, it could be destroyed. No, like heck there wasn't enough ammo to make something worthwhile with that "feature".) and next to no sandbox elements was released to the public, with one of the most odious DRM systems I have encountered in what is technically an indie game. Critical voices were quickly quelled, posts deleted, accounts removed.
And now, Mr "I was right all along and only regret not firing people faster" comes around for a third time asking for money, without having delivered the MMO which he announced prior to this, and obviously being oblivious to said fact.
Not giving him any money is the least you can do.
And let me put it that way: Some people are only alive because it's illegal to shoot them.
A second damning thing is that he also treats his staff with equal contempt and runs off leaving them completely unpaid. On the same page we have this:
Andy Wolfendon
For the faggots that are suddenly and magically diehard fans of Space Engineers, a game that is unproven and unreleased by saying "Oh he's better now, he won't pull off this again". You are just deluding yourselves. This man is the equivalent of a commissioner that has learnt that he can get away with duping artists to work for him and running away with the money with no consequences.
Of course he's going to pull this shit off again.
But this post will probably fall on deaf ears, because gamers, for all their touting of supporting developers, are probably full of shit because they couldn't care less for the unpaid artists and writers that the developers step over. They just want their next quick fix, and are not afraid to lie or go into denial to get it. Just go look at the massive support this game already gets on Youtube and Steam. Disgusting.
p.s: Apologies for the overwhelmingly negative tone in the journal after such a long absence from updating DA. This particular topic grinds my jimmies and rustles my beans, so I couldn't help posting about it. On the lighter side, while my life has been busy I have been drawing a bit. Most of the sketches had been given away to some colleagues out of boredom, but the ones that I do have are not scanned it yet, and are probably not worthy of scraps. Deepavali holidays are coming up, perhaps I can find time to make a complete image.
I've come across the announcement of the game because I am a very regular user of Kerbal Space Program. Keep in mind this was before Space Engineers made its debut on Steam. Since then, I've mostly kept quiet about it, until now. Now that it's on Steam, you get a massive boatload of absolute retards who do zero research on a game and buy based on reflex and hype.
In case you are wondering why, Marek Rosa (the dev who's in charge of Keen Software House) was well known by the Miner Wars 2018 community to have lied and taken money without delivering on promises on that previous crowd funding game. He promised that it would be an MMO, charged money for it, and RAN off.
For evidence's sake I'll post a post mortem here (The comments section alone is worth the price of admission.):
www.gamasutra.com/blogs/MarekR…
Now let me reiterate the debacle that was Miner Wars.
When it first cropped up (and asked for money, no less...), it was touted as a sandbox game with destructible terrain (asteroids), which you would mine for minerals, which you could sell for upgrades. While turning your holey rock into you personal swiss cheese of doom and boobytraps. Motherships supposedly were to serve as hubs / trading points, with clan/player owned motherships being touted as possible concept.
Then all of the sudden MMO talk started. More money was appropriated with the promise of MMO-style gameplay. A terrible, sub-par descent clone with barely destructible terrain (yes, it could be destroyed. No, like heck there wasn't enough ammo to make something worthwhile with that "feature".) and next to no sandbox elements was released to the public, with one of the most odious DRM systems I have encountered in what is technically an indie game. Critical voices were quickly quelled, posts deleted, accounts removed.
And now, Mr "I was right all along and only regret not firing people faster" comes around for a third time asking for money, without having delivered the MMO which he announced prior to this, and obviously being oblivious to said fact.
Not giving him any money is the least you can do.
And let me put it that way: Some people are only alive because it's illegal to shoot them.
A second damning thing is that he also treats his staff with equal contempt and runs off leaving them completely unpaid. On the same page we have this:
Andy Wolfendon
Marek Rosa is an unscrupulous person. He stopped paying many members of his team, including me (a freelance writer/editor) as Miner Wars approached release. He promised he would pay us once the game started selling, but , of course, did no such thing. He then disabled all forms of contact, so that team members could not reach him, and never made the slightest effort to make good on his promise. Now he boasts of selling 50,000 units but leaves a trail of unpaid people behind him. When pinned into a corner about this (before he cut of all contact) he would become extremely arrogant and act as if the team members were being selfish to request their pay. I remember working 16-hour days, giving up a holiday weekend with my family so that the script could get finalized in time. My efforts went completely unappreciated and uncompensated. STAY AWAY from this guy.
For the faggots that are suddenly and magically diehard fans of Space Engineers, a game that is unproven and unreleased by saying "Oh he's better now, he won't pull off this again". You are just deluding yourselves. This man is the equivalent of a commissioner that has learnt that he can get away with duping artists to work for him and running away with the money with no consequences.
Of course he's going to pull this shit off again.
But this post will probably fall on deaf ears, because gamers, for all their touting of supporting developers, are probably full of shit because they couldn't care less for the unpaid artists and writers that the developers step over. They just want their next quick fix, and are not afraid to lie or go into denial to get it. Just go look at the massive support this game already gets on Youtube and Steam. Disgusting.
p.s: Apologies for the overwhelmingly negative tone in the journal after such a long absence from updating DA. This particular topic grinds my jimmies and rustles my beans, so I couldn't help posting about it. On the lighter side, while my life has been busy I have been drawing a bit. Most of the sketches had been given away to some colleagues out of boredom, but the ones that I do have are not scanned it yet, and are probably not worthy of scraps. Deepavali holidays are coming up, perhaps I can find time to make a complete image.
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Ninja Livestream (finished)
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Livestreaming so that the pressure of people watching me will force me to at least finish a panel today.
HIYAH! www.livestream.com/levelord
Edit: aaaand it's finished! Thanks for everyone who stopped by!
HIYAH! www.livestream.com/levelord
Edit: aaaand it's finished! Thanks for everyone who stopped by!
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